Four years ago, I started actively and consciously working on my self-awareness. It’s been four long, long, very long years. I had more things happening during these four years, than in the previous twenty-eight.

I discovered natural laws, cause and effect relationships, I have seen good turn into evil, and evil undressed in a really good way. Most of my beliefs had been shattered, I don’t even recognize myself in the mirror and the way my life turned… let’s just say it’s on fast forward now.

I am more than amused, today, by the question “Where do you see yourself in the next five years?”

I would say now, wherever it suits me best, wherever the flow takes me and wherever life considers I have to learn a new lesson. I have switched from a life lived inside my mind, in the future, always outside of my own self, to one where, even if I still have some more moves to catch, I can be myself and add onto my own reality.

As I started learning, the Universe grabbed me by the hand, and said “Let’s go!” When I said I wanted to learn, heal, or confront something, based on my curiosity, the Universe replied, “There you go!”.

There are so many lessons I have learned, and yet I am constantly learning every day. A friend once asked “So…when does the learning finish? How much more is there to learn?” The answer I reached during the last four years, is… you never stop learning, and the amount of information and experiences to be passed through is, in the end, infinite. But once you open the gift box and you start digging it with curiosity, more and more things unravel, turning into a waterfall of experiences.

Above everything, one lesson really got me thinking, and as I was observing it, it became more and more obvious. Everything repeats! Everything that there was, will be again, everything will get repeated at some point. But only until that repeating item is not necessary anymore.

I like to call all the experiences that we go through, as lessons. I know this word might seem severe, may imply an obligation or even a bad aura around itself. But these lessons are really meant for the greatest good of each of us. They repeat, time after time, as a spiral, which I know, sounds a little bit like a cliché. So, then, let’s just say there are patterns in life. And once you get the idea behind these patterns, impossible no longer exists. It’s like a Universal medicine for your entire life.

The catch is to, first of all, pay attention to yourself, your environment and the present moment. Don’t go into the future, don’t make scenarios, refrain yourself from the past and stop reliving the same situations. Rather, observe, without interacting with, the current situation. Try to remember, but without getting involved in hurtful feelings, when something similar happened. If it’s for the first time, think about the last time you felt that way. Many of the things that happen to us might seem new at a first glance, but the feelings they trigger are familiar for sure. So start with observing when, what, how was the situation caused, see if it’s somehow familiar and note how you feel. The situation will repeat itself until something changes, then it becomes obsolete, until there is no need for you to experience such a thing and you no longer need that feeling. The only way to stop the lessons from repeating is for you, yourself, to make a move. Logically, the only move or change you can make has to deal with your own self, as you can’t force things or acts on others. A small change, maybe like not taking something personally anymore, or not letting it get you upset/stressed/frightened is sometimes the only thing needed for the entire lesson to stop.

We are here to learn about ourselves, develop and improve every single day. The Universe will give us the same lesson, over and over again, until we make that necessary change within, so we can evolve. None of us is left behind, and fighting this is more than useless, as it’s meant for each and everyone’s improvement.

Once you unleash the flow, start the game and raise your hand to life’s invitation, there is no turning back, only looking forward, and maybe even on fast forward, as long as you learn the lessons. And keep in mind that the more redoes you need, the worse and deeper the lesson gets, the harder it is to focus on dealing with it and not get caught in a whirl of desperation. So, try to grasp it the first time, or at least from the second attempt. It will hurt and annoy you far less than a lesson being taught on… let’s say… a hundredth attempt. 

For the last four years, I have seen the patterns and the proverbial wheel. I have come to think that life rolls like a car, the more you press the gas the more accelerated and exciting it is. You are on wheels! And you are running the race of your life! Literally 🙂