Almost 9 years ago, I realized I had to change a few things, something no longer felt right and I had no clear direction of what or how I wanted it to be. Little did I know I was having this process during my Saturn return, so definitely things were going to change. I think anyways, even culturally, when you approach the 30th anniversary, some questions arise and you enter a different dimension.
Therefore, I started searching, looking more into it, trying to find at least a clear picture of what I wanted. I always loved searching, reading, accumulating information, plus I had a crush with Psychology and Philosophy. Even as a child, I would ask questions like “Why is the water wet?” and “What is outside the Universe?”. “Why?” was and still is my favorite question. I like going down to the root of things, to the reasons why something happens as it does, putting pieces of information together to fill in the big picture. I love the big picture, but also going into specific details, if something looks of interest.
I found out a lot about myself, from people coming from different environments, people with different backgrounds, applying a certain technique or another, teaching various systems, from self-development and business approach, to psychology, numerology, astrology, and finally Human Design.
The first time I heard about it, was during a meditation workshop, where the facilitator offered to calculate my profile. Her words still sound in my head: “Oh dear, you are a Manifesting Generator!”. “You have a lot of energy within, but you are not letting it out, to manifest” she continued. I went home and Googled a bit about the subject, but, it seemed years later, that was not the right time. The amount of information was overwhelming, texts that I found online were just repeating the same stuff. It was around 5000+ pages of reading, about some Mechanics, Physics, planets and where they were when I was born. A different type of horoscope, I joked to myself, and I just abandoned the idea.
I kept on working with myself, using the already known techniques, getting to a point where my mind thought there can’t be anything else. But my mind was so wrong! Due to different aspects of life and circumstances, I realized that all that I already knew, was no longer helping me. And this was because everything I learned was surely applicable to my old version, but the new version was immune to all I knew. The emergency signal was triggered by the body, as it usually happens, and I realized it was no longer cooperating as I knew until then. I went down a spiral, as all my foundational knowledge was useless now, and my health was not getting any better. Looking for information, I came across again, with the idea that I was a Manifesting Generator, so my body had a specific way of functioning due to that. Ok, now I had a reason for sure to investigate more in detail the Human Design subject. This time I looked for books, bought a few ones, and had my chart read by someone that had experience with it. It was a lot to process, and the idea behind it, that it takes up to 7 years to understand your chart and who you are, did not look appealing for someone with my short patience. But I said, hey, let’s give it a try! I haven’t tried it before, I don’t know if it works, but something about the things it mentioned resonated with me. I had applied other things before, and they had all worked, so I thought at least I could learn something new and expand my “database”, if nothing else.
This is how I got to really try out Human Design. I found out I am an Emotional Manifesting Generator, 5/1 profile, with a Left Angle Cross of Duality. I read, study, think about a subject, and in the end I have to see how the subject feels to me. And yes, that takes time, now I understand those 7 years needed for a complete rewiring. There is so much I can understand about myself and the world around through it. Things that I could not see where they were coming from before, now seem obvious. It is like a whole manual on what and how things should be done in order for us to thrive. Everyone is unique, with their own qualities and designs, everyone has the potential to develop into someone amazing and uplifting for themselves and the ones around. We all have 64 possible gates, defined or undefined, making up to 192 crosses, on 9 centers and numerous possibilities of combinations between different gates. All of us have the same template, empty blueprint, as in we all have similar characteristics and traits, but the fine differences make each of us unique.
The Chronicles of a Human Being 
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