There are days when it rains, and fog covers everything. There are days when everything is grey, and you start wondering if there is still a Sun in the sky. Days in which you ask yourself how and when will it all pass, if there is anything else beside this greyed out – faded out existence. There are days in which you feel everything is lost, and even if you look for your soul, it seems it shall never be found again. You walk, taking one more step, one more breath, you look around again hoping that it will all go away, shattered by the warm Sun rays. But the more you look around, the more fog you see, the more you feel lost and vulnerable to despair. There is nobody around, and the silence makes you hear your heartbeat in your ears, the blood flowing through your veins, the thoughts pounding in your head. It is easy for confusion to take over and throw you into a battle with everything, including yourself, so you can escape that which is… only in your mind.

Because the fog we see, the coldness we feel, the hope we think is dead, these things exist just in our mind. In the middle of the greyness, take a moment and stop. Sit down on the ground, and just be there. Don’t take any action, don’t analyze your senses, don’t question your thoughts. Don’t label, don’t judge, don’t try to figure out what’s next. Just be.

You can close your eyes if you wish, but above all, surrender. Surrender to the present moment, and dive inside yourself, dive inside your soul’s kingdom. The reason why you feel lost and without escape is that you lost your kingdom, and your Queen is not at home. The kingdom you carry within you is all you really have, and yet it is infinite and more than anyone could wish for. There are people, places, memories, decisions, and consequences in it, and they all belong to you. You rule them all, with every choice, with every word and thought you express in the world. And your kingdom needs its Queen.

Most of us carry within ourselves banished Queens. They have been deemed as outcasts by those who could not or would not see and respect them for what they are. Those are the Queens without a throne because others usurped their roles and took their seats. They are the Queens wondering in the wild, befriending the wild beasts and living in isolation, because the people didn’t want to respect their rulership, and turned against them. They are the Queens that have forgotten what it feels like to have a tribe and companionship, to trust and to lean on real support, and they went feral. They sometimes come out of the woods, but they have been there for far too long, and have forgotten how it feels and how it is, to rule their kingdom with honor. But still, they can remember!

I found my Queen, dressed in an ivory dress, in the middle of a sunny forest, on an amazing Spring Day. It took a song, a friendship, a moment of peace, quiet and trust for my Queen to come back home. She was reminded that her role is to create a space of safety and comfort for all those who accept her in their lives, and she is needed. All I had to do was to stop my thoughts for a moment, look around and feel the peace. The music of the song went along with the sounds of the birds, and the cracks of wood sticks under my feet. I felt the rhythm of the nature, emerging on that Spring Day, and embraced by support, trust, and friendship, I asked my Queen to come back home. It gently came from within, in the beginning with some shyness and doubts. But I stayed there, welcoming her, and reminding her that she is safe, we are safe. As long as we are together, and my Queen rules my kingdom, we are all safe. All Queens are good, kind, gentle and wise, for as long as they are accepted and seen for whom they truly are. The Queens will always protect their kingdoms, which are the very depths of our souls.

From now on, I shall let my Queen rule, because she knows what grace and honor are. She makes decisions from the heart, caring for the soul and life. I put my Queen on her throne and let her take the lead. Her rulership is kind and gentle, and she shall take care of everyone who wishes to sit beside her, and of herself. She asks for respect and support, and in return she will create a safe space for all the souls that wish to rest in her companionship. I know that with her ruling my kingdom, I am safe and stable.

We need to find our Queens and give them back their righteous place: on the thrones of our decisions, choices, and lives. We need to get us back to ourselves and remember all the power that lies in us when we re center, when we get back to ourselves. We get back to ourselves by taking back the lead in our lives, through surrendering to the power of Life, and assuming our roles in the reality that we created.