In the Line Companion Book, this gate is called the gate of Deliverance – Aloneness, and sits on the Heart Center.

The very name of this gate is what is really demanded of the Ego. The tribe needs the
Ego to express its power. Willpower is something that does not operate in a fixed
pattern. All of us know that by the way we eat. You can be fairly regular in your eating
but you can also have all kinds of variations that run in between. Only when the Ego
system builds up its proper readiness is it going to use that willpower. When the
willpower is there, its purpose is to provide for those who need. The byproduct of that is
that the deliverer may in fact do well themselves, but the thing that drives their Ego is
the need of those who call upon it. This is classic in the nature of the 40/37, in the
channel of Community, in terms of the marriage contract – this is the channel of the
marriage contract in sexuality. The reality is that the 40 is expected to deliver. The 40
and its Ego is expected to go out there in the world and conquer the material plane, and
in return it will have its Ego massaged. – Ra Uru Hu

Gate 40 on the 1st line represents my Design Sun, and it is directly connected to the 37th gate on the same 1st line, representing my Design Earth. Easy to say that this channel is the one defining my Solar Plexus and also giving me my emotional authority. But before I go on with the channel or the impact of this channel on my emotional authority, I believe gate 40 deserves it’s own contemplation and discussion.

Being on the design, therefor the subconscious side of my chart, it took me a while to get used to it and to understand it. In the shadows, it gives a feeling of loneliness, of despair, of uselessness of asking for help or companionship, because these won’t ever be provided and it feels in vain to do so. Feeling in vain… another feeling that this gate can generate on the shadow side. I have known these so well, and years ago, I could not understand those who said that we are never alone. How come? I mean I always felt alone, even in the middle of a crowd of people. I always felt off from the crowds, but still craved to be within a crowd. This is also the gate of the Father, the Tribe Leader, the Provider. So, of course it likes to have a “tribe”, because with no tribe, there is no leader. It is a gate that likes to deliver, to provide, to free others and lead them where they haven’t been before. As it sits on the Heart Center, it is related to the will power and the use of will power because of the tribe, for the good of the tribe. And once it delivers whatever the tribe needs, it needs to sit and rest and enjoy the results of its work.

I always liked to take care, provide, help, nurture. I don’t “blame” this only on my 40th gate, but on the entire 40-37 channel. I liked taking care of others, especially people who came to me for advice, and I always felt energized and in the flow whenever I managed to help. Giving to my “tribe”, as in family or friends, always brought good feeling and a sense of “this is the right direction, this is what I should do”. But I also like gratitude, compliments, to see that what I did helped, and improved the other one’s life. Of course this kind of attitude can easily be turned in the favor of someone who tries to exploit my good will, and they can start “promising” either praising, either different sorts of benefits, just as long as I deliver whatever they have asked. Just that, like in the case with the donkey and the carrot, no matter how much I delivered to some people, I never got my reward. And then, my will power went away, because the fuel for this will power is the end reward, especially when it has to do with mundane things.

If I would keep it at a “worldly” level, this is the simplest explanation and translation of Gate 40: I do for you what you asked and I know I am capable to provide, only as long as I receive some benefits in return, as long as I feel this is a fair trade. Fairness is something very volatile in my opinion, as long as we don’t all have the same values or scale for measuring reward, praise and compliments. Because this is not a gate that is interested in money! Actually money is used only for the people outside the “tribe”, and to be honest I am not very fond of making deals with someone outside of my “tribe”. Because as soon as I start talking with someone, and I feel we get along well, they become part of my tribe, and the relationship becomes warmer compared to a conversation with someone I never met before that asks me directly about the prices for the goods and services I provide. It is way easier for me, but also for the other one, to create some sort of friendship-relationship once we start interacting. Of course, not everyone wants to become part of my “tribe” and I also have some boundaries regarding to who gets a pass and who doesn’t, but once someone becomes officially part of my “tribe” they can fully count on me. And I expect the same! Otherwise, it wouldn’t be a fair trade.

This gate, and the channel it forms together with the 37th gate on the Solar Plexus, is a tribal one. It is concerned with the good of the group, of the family, of anyone who we care about. But it is also an exhausting and draining one, once we keep delivering for the group, and instead of being praised and let to rest, we are demanded more, and more, and more. Burnout is very possible for this channel, and the emotional wave can crash below the surface, for a very long time. Depression, no will to do anything, lack of interest in the group and wellbeing of the group, lack of interest in life in general and loneliness are the main not-self feelings that can be triggered by the shadow sides of these gate and channel. We provide for others, and we expect our reward and possibility to rest. But here comes the catch: as long as we provide for others, it should be clear that they can’t provide back to us the same thing! Because otherwise we wouldn’t have had to do it, to provide them with whatever they needed, from the beginning! So, this expectation, to get back exactly what we have given is unrealistic. We give fuel to our “tribe”, and it would be nice if the tribe showed appreciation for it. But the people that make that “tribe”, have their own paths, suffering, expectations, feelings, etc. Maybe what we need as a reward, is not in their system.

So, then, where can we get our reward back from? What I personally found out, is that the best way I can recharge and get back into the world, is to spend time… alone. Yes, that loneliness that a lot of people have been taught that should be avoided, is actually gate 40’s blessing! I was afraid of it too, because I always wanted to get rid of that loneliness feeling that comes from the shadow of this gate. But being alone, and feeling lonely are not the same thing. And instead of being with the wrong group, or working my heart out to make them see me, thank me, give me attention, I would rather be alone and preserve my energy. And actually I am never alone! Because when I spend time alone, my favorite activities are meditating, daydreaming and just sitting and watching the nature. This means I am either connected to the Source, or to Mother Earth, or simply to myself, my needs and dreams. I love just laying on the sand, on the ground, floating on water, and just watching the sky. Those are the moments when I feel connected to everything, when I get in the flow and suddenly everything becomes possible. Those are the moments when I recharge my batteries, so that when I sprint again, I know for sure I can make it until the end.

There is nothing wrong in being alone, there is nothing wrong in being still and just laying in bed, as long as that is what the body/mind/soul need. There is no use into pushing myself, to do, go, achieve, move, when my body needs its rest. And I see the need that my body has to withdraw from the world, to be alone and recharge, to get its fuel directly from the Source and Nature. In fact, if I stayed too much in the world, among people, I would get too caught up in the worldly matters, I would lose contact with the Universe and myself, and I would get drained. Gate 40 takes its energy directly from the Source! It is directly connected to the Divine Will, and needs to learn to not push things to happen, not to rush, but to give in the control, get in the flow and understand the idea of “Thy will shall be done!”.

During the last year, I set myself a goal that I would not struggle. I wanted to see the light side of my 28-38 Struggle channel, and besides this, the surprise was that I also understood my 40th gate. When I stopped struggling, especially about solving or controlling a situation, it felt like Life took over and provided the best outcome possible. Avoiding storms, accidents on the highway, getting money out of the blue when I needed it the most, and so many other wonderful things happened that I never thought to be possible. My mind was panicked in the beginning, because it is hard for it to understand the force that the Universe is, and it is hard for it to not know what the next step is. But as long as I have faith, my steps are guided, and as long as I put myself in the service of the Universe, let it lead the way and I just follow, nothing can go wrong.

Together with gate 37, this channel likes to be of services for the tribe, make sure everyone feels good and enjoys themselves. The only thing it asks in return is appreciation. It has an easy upwards direction, and then it can suddenly crash and start going up again. But it can also be influenced by the people around us: a happy, optimistic “tribe” will be like a medicine for the low wave, while a pessimistic and critical “tribe” will make even the highest wave plummet into depression and unworthiness.

In case you have this gate defined, I would like you to keep in mind these main 3 things:

• loneliness and alone time is a much needed blessing
• your “tribe” can influence your mood, so remember you can always chose a different “tribe”
• the best reward comes from being connected to the Source and being in the flow of life