Category: What I Have Learnt

The best way to understand is through trying and playing.

My Hands

I was waiting for a ride. I had a few hours all by myself so I started looking at the people around me. There were all kinds of people, coming from somewhere, going to somewhere else, rushing or not, all ages and shapes and colors.

I was sitting on a chair, holding my hands in front of my chin, just watching. And then… I layed my eyes on my hands. I had like a black hole moment, where time just expanded, and the world outside faded away. I couldn’t hear or see anything else, except for my hands. I took a good, long look at them.

I’ve started using them intensively just a few years ago, when I was looking for a lamp in the shops and couldn’t find any affordable good looking enough one. I took on the chance of making the first wood lamp ever, all by myself, with nails, hammers and all the other necessary tools and materials.

Since then, a few years and lamps have passed on. I also found gardening, painting and sewing. I never use gloves, as I need to feel the soil before I decide to plant any seeds in it. The materials I use for the clothes I make need my direct touch, without any interference, before I say it will become part of an end product. And the most I enjoy is painting with my bare hands. I simply feel the painting covering the canvas, I feel its texture and thickness on the cloth. I use my hands daily and they got through a lot until now! I never avoid giving a hand to help save an old object, clean time that covers the surfaces, add a touch of new and fresh on different pieces of handmade decorations.

I never took such a good look at my hands before. I always thought they could have looked better, had been better if I had nails of different shape and size so I could polish them, were definetly not picture perfect. But… they got me through all of my life. I have taken them for granted, missjudged them, didn’t give them enough credit. And then, a thought stroke me:

As long as I have my hands, there is nothing I can’t do!

These hands, that I have forgotten some time ago, are always there for me, have never failed me, and can still do a lot more. It is time we showed more gratittude to ourselves and to our own talents and capabilities. Often times we forget and mistreat ourselves, exactly the ones that will never fail or leave us.

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Thank you 2018!

It’s the last day of 2018. And it is the first time that I have ever thought about writing my thoughts on an year that has passed.

I suppose… I should thank this year for the first five months in which I had to battle an ear infection and a cruel, very cruel flu. This has thought me about my strength, my physical possibilities and how doing what I really like can fill me up with energy and make me forget that I could hardly get out of bed in the morning.

I found my courage, my voice in front of groups of people, my wide potential of understanding, and most of all, I found the Universe.

It’s like I was guided throughout the year by invisible strings, always taking me in the right place, on the right time. I lost (actually I gave up) ten kilograms, while discovering myself and my true joy. It was with a lot of ups and downs, a lot of confusing moments, when I had only my faith left that all the things will turn out OK in the end.

I was driven by the Universe in a lot of new places, met new people, some of them on the other side of the world, but with similar stories. Making me, thus, understand that we are all part of the same human kind, although we live on different parts of this Globe, we go through similar experiences and feelings. I felt more connected to the people around me than ever! I felt the warmth of the Sun, that is the same wherever you are on Earth, it shines in the same way over all of us.

And in the end, as a gift for my birthday, I found my inner strength, my place, my joy, my beauty! I never thought that life could be lived this way!

So in the end, thank you Universe for a 2018 full of all the meaningful messages that were so kindly sent my way!

May 2019 be your twin brother! 🙂

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On the Other Side of the World

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So…I got on the first plane. Nothing new until now, not the first flight between these two airports, nothing out of the ordinary.

Reaching my first stop, I had almost six hours to browse through this foreign airport that became so familiar to me, until my longest flight ever until now: a eleven-and-a-half hours flight over the ocean!

Finally, I got on this second plane, a huge Boeing 767 (I know, it might not be huge for other people, but for me it was the first time that I saw this kind of aircraft for real and not in the movies!) I was both excited and a little anxious, as I don’t like flying that much and my longest flight until then was about three to four hours.

I got comfortable (although I don’t know how sitting on a chair for almost twelve hours could be called comfortable) and fell asleep. And…woke up! And scared! The passenger behind me hit her seat belt against my chair and suddenly woke me up, not knowing who I was, where I was, what I was doing there, you know, the kind of wake up that leaves you highly disoriented! A panic attack started, feeling trapped inside a “can”, 13000 meters above the sea level, actually seeing the ocean below! I saw that we were only at the first have of the journey, and I realized that the plane can’t pull over for me to catch my breathe, nor I can call home…so I was on my own! In the air! Literally!

I started with my breathing exercises (thank you Universe for finding them out!) and applied all the relaxing techniques from different forms of meditation. And it got better…not the most relaxed person in the world, but definitely better and cooperating.

As I reached the second airport (still had one more flight to go), I found out that my baggage got lost. I felt sad and afraid at the same time, not knowing if I could find everything that I needed at my destination so that I could have a functional week. But there it was…lost. I was tired, angry, sad, frustrated as I went to the gates of my last flight. I felt betrayed by the world, the Universe, I needed sleep so badly that I actually fell asleep on the chair in the waiting area.

It took me a huge effort to get on the last plane, where I fell asleep again instantly before the take-off. I was in a “give-up” mood, not caring about anything anymore, too tired to be afraid of one more flight, I just let go. We stayed on the runway for almost two hours because we couldn’t take off due to a nasty storm. I was sleeping in a plane that would go through storm! 😀 Now this was something new for a control freak like me.

We finally took off and I was sleeping soundly. But at one point, I hit my head against the wall, hardly, waking me up for a few seconds. Just enough to take a look outside and see that the storm and Mother Nature were playing yo-yo with the plane! In other conditions I would have been scared, I would have had a high heart beat, but this time, I just surrendered. I even had like a dream in which the Universe would have to literally hit my head in a wake-up call that I should just go with the flow, give up, trust, relax. I started smiling as I finally understood the message.

A while ago I found out what would make me happy, where my place would be, what I should do to feel fulfilled… but, I also had a lot of fears: how was I going to make it? Who would I be? Would I still have friends? What would the other people say? What if I fail?

So the Universe had to send me on the other side of the world, take me out of my warm comfort zone, actually hit my head to shake me and wake me up, and above it all, make me loose the old baggage I had carried with me for so many years. All the unnecessary things that I thought I couldn’t do without, all the things I thought were a “must-have” for me, everything…lost. And all these to make me understand that now that I know, I can’t go back anymore, I have to move on, surrender to faith and the Universe, accept things I can’t change, take chances and understand that there are other ways to “survive” a situation, even if not comfortable for the moment!

I hope I have learnt my lesson and the Universe won’t be forced to send me to the South Pole or Mars to make me understand and finally take some actions!

Because, when the Universe says you have a purpose, you have a purpose! And it has all the possible ways to make you see and understand that, and most of all, stop running away from your true meaning and give up the fears! There is no need for fear when everything is perfect as is!

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